2008: I've finally got some walks done.

There's only 1.5 months left for 2008. Yet, no marshmallow for me. Instead, some sweat, worry but no panic.

xxx

Last night, I joined the "2008 ORBIS - Bupa Moonwalkers event", which was fund-raising ORBIS's sight saving mission requiring the participants to walk through around 20km fm Mong Kok to Sai Kung and share the sunrise there.

Along the route I met a lot of old friends - fm when you were together with in secondary schools, in university, in old workplace and in current ones. It's just like a process for you to reload all these old days' memory into your CPU, a very touching feeling.

Days before I've been thinking of the objective for joining this activity. Secondly, I've been a bit "different" and "indifferent" these days, as I am doing some self-reflections on some personal conflicts. And after joining this, through the "hard work", I've got some hints to the answer for the above 2 questions finallly. I think that's why people saying "actions always speak louder than words"?

The biggest challenge and surprise to last night event was that, one of our teammates was suddenly missing during the course, and everyone was so worried after lossing her contact. Actually, this teammate was my friend's friend and therefore, I had very little idea of what she was and how she really looked like. However, I could imagine how's their missing friend's feeling right now in her heart. Why? Just because I was the one becoming the victims for several similar occasions before, being left behind by your own friends, and she must be very unhappy.

Luckily that I was also one of the sub-group falling behind the main stream of my current "broken" team, I decided running towards the destination direction, hoping that either I could have located this lost girl or I could catch up the front sub-group. I couldn't remember how far I've running since it's been a really long queue and right before becoming totally exhausted, I've found the girl successfully.

Yea, though I did not study any counselling course, I was quite good at comforting girl(s) especially in the dark by doing and saying bad things. So, this was my advantage (or disadvantage). You could like (or dislike) my such personality but yet, I DON'T CARE! I'll repeat: I DON'T CARE! So the girl complained how sad she was being left behind without any of her friends' knowing she's been left behind, and once she's felt regreted for joining such team instead of another one, just becoz she cared about their friendship in this team. However, she's been so affirmative of this event mission and she'd decided going forward even she's alone now.

I totally understood her feeling, since I've got a cold-blooded friend who's been most indifferent to all but 1 only friend, i.e. me, but he's going to marry soon. How ridiculous but life was sometimes and she found some comfort fm my sad stories, perhaps. And I further elaborated my reason for joining this event, just because I could have a chance of experiencing, though in a very limited way, the life of the blindness, and this is very meaningful. And of course, I did mention to her that my bad luck with these selfish friends were not better than hers, since 1.) they didn't confirm me the meeting time and place until the same day evening while this event started at midnight 2) they just kept walking and walking that they could leave their own friend behind, i.e. you and me now!

We just further exchanged some of the ideas of how to live with different people and acknowledged that everyone was different in certain ways and they were already adults, having the right to choose for their own lifestyles. Sometimes there's no way to change others- you could advise them only and finally we had to learn how to accept some of others' bad traits and avoid such fm happening on own selves too. Though things were not perfect and there's no big deal for having fun or tears with such different friends actually.

Eventually, I had accompanied such missing girl to the destination point and, some of her and my friends had left already, as expected so no dissapointment either. But some were still there and so tonight's ending, though might not perfectly good, still unforgottable and fruitful with sandwiches and soya milk as breakfast!

I did not settle for the sunrise and just hurried back to home for a good sleep.

xxx

There's still 1.5months to go for 2008, and I'll take everyday not for granted. Dream like you'll live forever; and live you'll die tomorrow.